My name is Leah, and I am represented by Hannah Noelle Models. I have been saying a variation of that statement for years. I have done dozens of photoshoots and have worked hard for one specific job, a Target advertisement. I have centered most of my life to get to this achievement. I book only… Continue reading Booking My Dream Job Won’t Bring Happiness

Update from my post https://lamaleah.com/2022/01/18/thank-you-for-respecting-my-boundaries-exvangelical-thoughts/ I did go to Scandinavian society with my grandparents one Friday night recently. We grabbed dinner at Spangles and headed over to the club. I met their friends, had a short meeting in the form of parlimanetary procedure. The program was about homesteaders from Scandanvia and I learned something. Overall… Continue reading What I did on a Church day Recently

I spend a lot of time discussing the ways growing up in organized religion brought harm to my well-being. These days I do it mostly because I think it's relatable to those who had similar upbringings. I am still processing my trauma, even though I've been out of church for a while. For this post,… Continue reading Good things that I miss sometimes about religion

I always felt like a misfit in the evangelical community. I grew up in a small messianic congregation and the majority of Christians don't see that denomination as a part of the church. The doctrine of it summed up is when Jesus died, he did not abolish the laws of the old testament. Because there… Continue reading “You were never a real Christian”

Once a month my mom hosts themed family dinners. She puts a lot of thought into these evenings so I try to make sure I make an appearance. We don’t have much family in the area so it's always a small gathering. Typically, these are the nights that my dad brings up the church topic… Continue reading Thank You For Respecting My Boundaries ~ Exvangelical Thoughts

I used to be a devout churchgoer. I would be at the building at least once a week, rain or shine. Well, time has passed and I haven’t been to a service in a few years now. I’ve been on a spiritual journey without going into a church building. At this point, I don’t see… Continue reading I’m Doing Alright Without Church

Anxiety is a bitch and prayer doesn’t have the same comforting power that it did when I was active in the church. I put together a list of things that I find comforting outside the realms of religion. Folding laundry and listing to a podcast Journaling or blogging  Sharing a meal with friends Spending time… Continue reading Comforting things as an E(x)vangelical

Naturally, I am a quiet person. I have always struggled to find my voice, and have spent years in therapy as a teenager trying to find it and honestly, I think I've made more progress in the past few years than when I was working on this with a professional. I think age has been… Continue reading How To Practice Using Your Voice

A few years ago, I was having dinner with a friend talking about atheism. Curious me, was asking lots of questions at one point they said, “I think that raising your kid in religion is a form of child abuse” At the time, I was strongly opposed but now that I’ve spent some time outside… Continue reading Is Raising Your Kid in Religion a Form of Child Abuse?

Several months back, my boyfriend and I got into an argument (it was so long ago, I couldn’t tell you what the disagreement was about). At some point, he said something along the lines of “You need to go back to being at Church and dance all the time. You were happier then.” I’m fairly… Continue reading Was I happier in Church?