Booking My Dream Job Won’t Bring Happiness

My name is Leah, and I am represented by Hannah Noelle Models. I have been saying a variation of that statement for years. I have done dozens of photoshoots and have worked hard for one specific job, a Target advertisement. I have centered most of my life to get to this achievement. I book only G-rated photoshoots, I frequently apply to agencies that work with the company, I watch what I post, and have even tried to contact their creative director on Linked in.

Beyond Target, I’m itching to do national work. I am constantly on casting networking sites applying for modeling and acting jobs. The furthest I’ve gotten is getting asked for additional photos or videos and then hearing nothing. I am not complaining, I understand that this industry is about connections, numbers, and being in the right place at the right time. Having a passion is absolutely mandatory because it can be a humbling career path. I am still as on fire for this as I did when I first caught the “Bug.”

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Lately, I’ve found myself in a very unrealistic way of thinking. When I’m doing my daily job hunting, I listen to a playlist that I created called ✨Manifesting✨. This playlist is piled with songs about making it. It’s my motivation because this part of the day can get really daunting. When I am doing this, I tend to daydream. I’ll think about things along the lines of…

 “How would I portray this roll?”

“What would it be like to shoot in LA?”

“It would be so cool to do this campaign”

I think that this, the daydreaming is perfectly healthy. In fact, it probably helps keep the dream (and work ethic) alive. But this is evolved into thoughts like….

“Once I get national work I’ll finally be comfortable calling myself a model”

“When I start consistently doing out of town gigs I’ll be living the dream”

“If only I could do a national gig, then it will feel like I’ve been doing something all these years”

“When I book target all the struggles will be worth it”

“When I book Target I can move on with my life”

And the most dangerous thing I will think…

“When I book Target I’ll be happy”

Would having a larger resume make the daily job hunt easier? Probably so. But am I senseless for thinking that my life will be drastically changed for the better after doing one photoshoot? Absolutely. I cannot be defined by my job, the job I want to have, or my dreams. While it is important to have goals and dreams, if I believe my life will get better later when I’m doing little to be content now, there’s no way I’ll be content then.

Realistically speaking, I am not unhappy with the life now. I have a cute little home, a job that treats me well with coworkers who are more like family, and a couple of friends. Things aren’t too shabby here in Kansas for me. Target could go bankrupt tomorrow and I could lose all my opportunities to shoot for that store.

In the long run, what really matters is having a community and a family however that looks for you. Find joy in the small things, and memories in the moments.

With all the love,


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Email: Lamaleahblog@gmail.com


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