I (Will) Have Typos

I have typos on this blog. Even as I double-check my drafts before posting, I always seem to miss something. As a writer, this scares me but I have had to learn how to allow myself to share grace… even when it’s grace towards myself. I have had to learn how to say after I have caught the typos (these types of things can be embarrassing), I can say, “It’s okay.” Every day I struggle with my dyslexia. Although this doesn’t normally affect my ability to clearly communicate, it does effect how I understand the proper use of the English language.

In the Christian community we tend to approach the concept of grace in two basic forms:

  • The grace that God has given His children,
  • The grace that we should give our brothers and sisters in Christ because of what He did, and continually does for us.

However, we forget the importance of another side of this issue. We don’t talk about giving ourselves permission to receive grace from ourselves. As a woman, I believe that this is a true problem in the church even though it is rarely spoken on. Even though I am still considered to be “young,” I am not immune to witnessing this dark issue that is essentially an issue of pride. We live in a day and age where we capture the special parts of our lives through the lenses of our camera phones, while using filters to sift through the rough parts of our journey. Through this age of filters, we tend to life with the goal of achieving the lifestyles that are as seemingly perfect as our social media feed.

It is no secret that girls in general are constantly comparing themselves to each other. Generally, as soon as we enter a room we are comparing ourselves to every other women in same vicinity.  We “judge” others for everything from outward appearances, social status, and social media status, just to name a few. We live in a society where we are expected to be perfect. We naturally desire to have a Pinterest-perfect life, but that is not how life seems to work. The thing is…we are going fail multiple times on our journey. We will fail our friends. We will fail our families. We will fail God and at times we will fail our own expectations that we have set for ourselves. It is within these times that grace comes into the picture.

I have found that in the Christian community women can be great at displaying grace towards others. However, we lack in the area of allowing grace for us individually. We can forgive others when they sin against us, but we struggle with forgiving ourselves when we fall into temptation.  From experience, I have learned that sometimes the greatest forms of healing can happen when you let go and forgive yourself after accepting the full forgiveness from God. The enemy tries to keep us in bondage of our own guilt and sin when we don’t allow grace to enter in our own hearts. If you truly believe that the creator of the ENTIRE universe can, and has forgiven you, what is stopping you from forgiving yourself?

I believe that something that sets this blog apart is my honesty about the struggles that I go through. It is my goal as a blogger to be transparent to anyone who reads this blog. I desire to be the same girl when I am online, and offline.  I am not always going to be politically correct or even grammatically correct for that manner. As you are a reader, I ask for grace from you. Grace, as I haven’t been the best at posting these past few months. Grace, as I seem to be writing about similar topics every week. Grace, as I don’t catch every typo. As writer, I want to emphasize how grateful I am for those who read this blog. I often times pray for God to give me the correct words to use, so that Lama-Leah can be a blessing to others.

I challenge you to display grace in all areas of your life and be transparent in your daily life.

Love you all! ~Lama-Leah

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The Set Path

My past four weeks have been crazy but in the best ways. I took a step of obedience and went where God has been calling me to go. It seems to be the only topic that I have written about lately, but I am truly excited to see where God is going to take me. However, the past few weeks I have been struggling. I know without a doubt that this is where I am supposed to be in this season, however, I have shamefully questioned Him. I have felt that I am not talented enough to be a professional performer. I have compared my talent to the talent of my peers who are also going through this program. God has given me confidence and a peace about sharing my talents with the world, but sometimes I still question where exactly He is taking me. In four months I am going to model, act, and sing at a conference with professionals in the entertainment industry being in the audience. I realize that I have been given a several once in a lifetime opportunities and am truly honored and grateful for them.

It has been long weekend. Friday morning started bright and early. My shift at the coffee shop started at 7 am and I have been going ever since then (it is Saturday night now). Throughout the busyness He has continued to teach me through His Holy Spirit. He has reminded me in various ways of three aspects this weekend:

1)      Walk this new journey purposefully.

2)      I may not feel as if I have enough talent but He has it under control.

3)      Even within my insecurities He has reassured me that this is exactly what I am supposed to be pursuing (but this story is for another blog).

There has not been a day since becoming a part of AMTC that I don’t think about the conference that I will be preforming/competing in. I have spent countless hours preparing mentally, physically, and spiritually. I have changed my lifestyle, diet, habits, and have set goals as a performer. Yet within this time of preparation, I have at times lost sight of why I am even a part of AMTC. I auditioned for the program because God showed me that I am supposed to be a missionary and a light within the entertainment industry and our culture. At times I have been caught up in the motions of “preparing” that I forget the greater purpose of why I am training.

I may not be fully equipped now to enter this mission field, but He would not have called me if He not planned on leading me down the path I’m on. I have confidence that I am enough to make it in this industry. I have enough — musical talent, personality, and even physical beauty. Not because of anything that I have done but because of the way that He has created me. At times, I may be uncomfortable but I expect this. Being a follower is not about comfort. We are called to make disciples and be a light on this dark world.  In the end, at the final judgment God will compare what we did and did not do on this earth. I don’t desire to waste any more time not sharing the good news just because I have a few insecurities. Through HIM I can find strength to do anything.

A Gift In Obeying

The adventure that lies in the future is that it is new and unknown but through it God always has a purpose. As humans, we naturally tend to keep our focus and energy on the time that we spend on this earth, often times forgetting that this world is not our home. As believers, we have the privilege of spending eternity with our Creator.

Recently, God has revealed to me a variety of lessons about two simple subjects, obedience and His will. We are called to make disciples, share the Gospel, and be set apart from the world. On this walk with Christ, I tend forget the blessings I can bring to others through Christ.

About a month ago, a friend taught me a valuable lesson about moving in the form of ministry when you are called. They shared with me about how they were led to minister in a location that was dark and desperately needed Jesus. Without hesitation they went where Jesus told them to go. It gave me encouragement and assurance that everything is in God’s hand, as I am entering my new mission field.

This evening when I was driving home from Bible study, God pointed out to me the power within just one single action while reminding me that everything works together for His good.

There is only one thing on this earth that defines me, and that is my relationship with Christ. I am fortunate to have been raised in a Christian environment. My parents instilled Christian values in me and that is priceless. Even though I was not always following Him, I knew the difference between right and wrong because I was raised to know the difference.

Although there were several factors that have influenced the reasons why I have relationship with God, I believe a majority of it comes back to my Grandma McCready. She accepted Christ as a teenager and raised her three daughters to fear the Lord (one of which is my mom). The faith of my grandparents is inspirational to me.

My grandmother was not raised in a Christian environment. She accepted Christ as her personal Savior as a teenager while attending a revival done by a well-known evangelist.

As I was driving, I thought about how my life, family, and the kingdom would be different if my grandmother had not attended this revival or hadn’t accepted Christ as a teenager. She had three daughters, seventeen grandchildren, and a handful of great grandchildren. All of the grandchildren were raised in the church and the majority of them are involved in some form of ministry today.

My family has influenced and ministered to hundreds, maybe even thousands of individuals for Christ. On my drive home, I remembered the ripple effect on just one life decision, especially when it is to be obedient to where God is calling you. For example, the friend that I mentioned previously was obedient when they went and shared Jesus. Not only did my friend help speak truth into the other individual’s life, but it inspired me and helped me find the courage to GO where I was being called. Not only was this achieved, I also wrote an article about this (with permission) for a Christian based publication. The amount of souls that will be reached by this story are endless. That is what unique and special about God — His blessings always seem to multiply in ways we can never imagine when we are obedient to His ways.

The reason that I write to you this evening is simple, to encourage you to not only keep Christ but also heaven in mind as you live your life. A single decision to GO where He is leading you to can lead to endless earthly, and heavenly blessings.

“But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds. You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.” ~James 2:18-19