I haven’t written for some time on here I’ve been writing for some other places and honestly I’ve had writers block for this blog.Today I am going to share with you a little bit about what God has been teaching me over the course of the past few months.
Before this fall if you would have asked me if I believed in devine appointments, I probably would have said “I’m not sure.” I had personally never experienced it before and didn’t know my stance on it. I believed in the Holy Spirit but not exactly to its full extent. A few years ago I had a umm well crazy experience at a friends church. The congregation was abusing (I’m not sure if that’s the right word) the Rauch HaKodesh. During the service, church members would get “prophecies from God” and then most of these messages didn’t come true. I went one funeral and less than five minutes of a regular Sunday service and as I was walking out I told myself that I would never step foot into that church again. It was not a church of God but a cult. I could write a book about everything that went on in that building within the short time I spent in it. Prior to this fall, that was my only expirence with truly inviting the Holy Spirit in the room (and look how that turned out). In a way I think that experience changed the way I view God and His Holy spirit working.
Within the past three months I’ve had so many expirences and stories to tell about how God has been working in my life. What God has laid on my heart to share is how He worked last weekend.
On Saturday my best friend got married and after the reception I had made plans to have coffee with a dear friend on mine at my favorite coffee shop near the church that wedding was at. My day was refreshing but I had no idea what was coming next. When I got home in the evening my parents had told me about some family issues that was going on. I was hurt, upset, and anxious about the confrontation that I needed to do the next day. As I was trying to process everything that had happened, I had the random thought of attending Church the next morning. I made a promise to my Aunt that I would visit her place of worship sometime and I thought it would be a good time to make trip (if nothing else, I would get to give a hug to my Aunt).
While I was driving to Church I was constantly changing the station on the radio (as always) and suddenly a song came on that I needed so badly to hear in the midst of my anxiety about the day. I listened to the song “Please Don’t Let Me Go” by Group 1 Crew and this is the first time I had ever listened to it and I’m in the car proclaiming “GOD PLEASE DON’T LET ME GO!” I got to the church and the during worship they started with my favorite song (this is amazing grace) and I started to feel God telling me, “I haven’t forgotten about you.” During the “talk to people time” (whatever that’s called) a man came up to me and said, “When you walked in I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you are the apple of His eye…” And what was the sermon about? Love. Within the past three months multiple people who I don’t know have come up to me and have said something along the lines of, “I felt that God wanted me tell you that He loves you and He is hurting for you.” I’ve always known that He loves me but lately I haven’t been believing it! What good does it do if I know but yet not believe it? What happened after the service? My Aunt and her husband prayed over me for strength to get through my confrontation that I had to do that afternoon. As I was driving home I had a sense of shalom that I didn’t have about the situation. I did what I had to do and the sittuation ended so much differently than what I was expecting. There were tears, but tears of happiness instead of sorrow.
What I have to say to you my friend is Jesus loves you and I hope you know and believe that.